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Secrets

Normally, I am bad at telling people my feelings. I am the kind of person who kicks herself after a fight when I finally realize what I was really trying to say. I also am aware how truly ironic this sounds coming from someone who posts her feelings on the internet on a somewhat weekly basis- my apologies. But it is a lot for my to write my feelings then say them.

Ever since I was little I would always write my mom or dad little letters thanking them or saying I’m sorry because I just couldn’t say it to their face, and if I did it just wouldn’t sound like I really meant it. It sounds stupid and I guess I should have realized then that I sort of had a problem.

It doesn’t take much to realize that I have a lot of feelings. At the end of the day I am always going to be sensitive. As I’ve matured I found ways to bite my tongue and stay positive but still sometimes the truth hurts. I’ve been called names before and treated terribly but nothing compares to when someone tells you the truth about yourself. That is when your true colors come out because we know the person who told us the truth is right.

When someone tells me the truth about myself I just can’t handle it. I don’t know if I’ve always been this way or if it is something new but all of the sudden it just kind of scares me. I just run away- literally I go to my room and won’t face the littlest issue in my life.  I don’t really know why the truth scares me because it should be easier to know that something is a problem- but still its scary.

I think that it is important to come to terms with the way you feel and the way that topics affect you. Clearly I have some problems to work out- but so does everyone. Wellness is more than just feeling good about yourself- its about understanding. There is no way that I could even look at myself in a mirror if I didn’t understand everything that is underneath my skin- good or bad. That is when I was ready to make a big change in my life- when i finally lifted my cloud of self doubt and worries and understood why I couldn’t make a change earlier.

We are never truly going to 100% change the way that certain topics effect us; old habits die hard. We just have to understand and find ways to make it easier. Somehow, between watching old episodes of 30 Rock, crying over Modern Family, and reading about One Direction (another secret that I swore I wouldn’t share to you all, but since we are in the mood I decided to just go all in) I understood what I needed to change in my life to make me successful.This change isn’t something drastic- all it really takes is staying seated and count to ten before talking back but I am sure its going to make a tremendous difference in my life.

So, if you haven’t said it lately thank everyone who tells you the truth because as hard as it is to hear it, it is ten times harder to say it. And as Zayn always says “Just close your eyes and enjoy the roller coaster that is life” I would also like to add- open your eyes to make sure you don’t run into trees or human beings.

If you are at all interested at anything I have to say make sure to follow my personal instagram: @gracekenney my health/wellness instagram: @blissful_wellness and my twitter @graceAkenney to be updated on my sarcastic and sometimes embarrassing life.

G xx

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Something To Think About

Today, while reading Marie Claire Magazine, I realized something ironic. In the June issue the subject of anxiety is brought up. It was brought up a lot actually, and that is when I realized how big of an issue it is in our culture.

As I have said before and will say again- being a teenager is not fun. The major reason why is the lack of understanding. From personal experience I know how terrifying it is to live day to day without knowing what will happen.

Everyone is different: they have different friends, different experiences, different failures, different aspirations and dreams yet we are all the same. We are built the same and tend to react the same in situations. In general people have small doses of anxiety- and others have more severe attacks. Formally known as panic attacks.

I find it striking that such a well-known magazine would bring up this topic so casually without addressing its true purpose. The general amount of anxiety of the culture has dramatically increased within the last few years. I believe this has a direct correlation to the lack of independence and control this world has.

Before Facebook and texting you would have to sit face to face with someone to truly understand them.  These days the truth of ones true personality becomes hidden under the surface each and every time they pop up on social media.  Before we realize it- we don’t even know who we are anymore. We just care about what other people want us to be and suddenly that’s who we become.

I know this sounds sad and depressing- but it is true. It is not as extreme as you would think but it is there lurking over your head like a bad perfume. People don’t understand the concept of individuality and therefore stick to similarity. Then when small events happen in their life they don’t know what to do, they can’t handle it. Suddenly small daily tasks turn into monstrous, tormenting battles. The spiral is out of control and then it attacks.  It happens slowly, it happens often, but yet it happens to more people than you think.

In a world where “oh my god, shut up I hate you” and “you’re such a loser” are common phrases that are said without much meaning our cultures confidence is slowly fading. We aren’t respecting each other or ourselves.

We are all in this together- each and every day. If we be ourselves and learn to live with the fact that we can’t control our lives maybe our culture will be more calm and respectful. Anxiety is something than control and by recent events it seems as though we need to address this issue on a bigger stage.

G xx

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How To Be the Real You.

Watch this video:

http://blog.petflow.com/this-is-a-video-everyone-needs-to-see-for-the-first-time-in-my-life-im-speechless/

It’s funny that I happened to stumble upon this video today because I was just thinking about this topic. Social Media. It is something that everyone has and everyone craves. The immediate satisfaction and understanding between two people, or more if you choose.

For me, social media is an important aspect to my life. I have learned through social media different tools that help me throughout my daily life. If any of you follow me on Instagram or twitter you know that I do not really care what anyone thinks about me and generally I do not follow many social “rules”.

Sometimes, however, I get so obsessed with seeing how many likes my picture has received or how many people followed me today that I forget to live my life. I came to the realization just over a year ago about how much of my life revolves around technology. To be honest, it is scary!

Being a teenager is hard. You are constantly being judged in every aspect of your life. We forget to just be ourselves. In a world where everything is so immediate, we loose the intimate feel. The most important piece of advice someone gave me when I was struggling with self-image is that no one is really judging you. No one cares how many people text you or how many followers you have- thats irrelevant. Just be yourself and enjoy your life- that is when people really start to look into you. If you are sitting on your phone then people will walk right past you without a second glance.

Be interesting. Be authentic. Be unique. Be you.

G xx